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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

I was a wallflower...

I can't seem to be able to to take this photo off so just just ignore the fact that you can see right up my nose. :)
When I was little I was very quiet. I rarely spoke in Sunday School unless it was with one of my friends. When I did speak to someone (other than my friends) I went over and over in my head what I wanted to say before I said it. Sunday School teachers loved me because I didn't run around and I didn't make noise. I sat in my spot and listened. I was quiet, well behaved, and polite.

But I think I hated being quiet, I just never really realized it.

I usually didn't have more than one or two friends. I always wanted to have a big circle of friends but it just never happened. I wasn't shy, but I just wasn't a huge talker.

I heard Priscilla Ahn's Wallflower and thought how it applied to me....especially when I was younger.

"Wishing I was more outgoing..."

I've gotten a lot more comfortable since I've gotten older. If I'm not talking its because I can't think of a single thing to say. I love to talk now. If we have something in common I will enjoy a conversation with you. I can be outgoing and sometimes you might just want to tell me to shut up. ;) Talking is fun, informative, and interesting.

But I still have a quiet side. I'm not really extroverted. I enjoy quietness, I love quietness.

Do Hard Things says to do things that are hard for you.

Talking on the phone was hard for me. The only people I would call was family. But I've pushed myself, I've made myself do some things that were uncomfortable.

And I'm pleased with the outcome.

I can now call a business without my heart beating...that's nice. ;) you have something that you want to overcome? Do you want to conquer an issue? Do you want to stop being a wallflower too? Tell me about it....I understand


Carri said...

I was REALLY outgoing then when I started get a little bit bigger I got more shy (but not to you). :)

Gaby said...

after reading this post I realized how much we have in common! I was also VERY shy and quiet when I was little... Now, and I agree with you, if I'm not talking it's because I really don't have anything to say! :) But I still LOVE, very, very much quietness. I'm the kind who will go out with friends and talk for hours, but after that, I wanna go home, and stay in the silence of my room for hours! I also (still sometimes) hate talking on the phone! I'm kindda glad to know I'm not the only one! haha It made me feel REALLY good to read your post and know that I'm not the only one like this! (;